Focus.... focus...

Whew! Haven't written in a few days, because I was sick and, for a day, PUKING. Anyone else have that one? Anyone? I hear my friend Becky had it... yes, puke puke puke until you're just not puking anything at all? Thought you were going to pass out or die? Thought it would never end? Well, it does end, just in case you catch this bug. It'll leave you a bit emaciated for a few days, but you'll survive it.

Sooooo... I'm back to walking, but have to lounge around a lot, which is why you find me here, on the blog.

Do you ever feel like there's so much to get your head around in life, bits and pieces, work, friends here and there, projects, trips, where you're going to live, what your goals are, etc... that you just stop thinking all together?

My sister Teresa and I were talking about what we focus on in life and how stress gets in sometimes. We were also reading this little devotional book that was talking about the focus of your heart... there were 4 focuses...

there was the focus on the how others see you and what they say about you,

the focus on how you THINK others see you,

the focus on how you see yourself,

and the focus on how God sees you.

We discussed this, and wondered which one consumed most of our thoughts... both of us said it was the focus on how we see ourselves. It comes from a good intention to do and be the right thing... but because we aren't looking at the pure truth (how God sees us), we are going to screw up and get stressed and start worrying about the wrong things.

I heard someone say the other day, and it REALLY hit me like I needed to hear it again, "LIfe isn't about you. IT's about GOD." I was startled at this truth, and realized that I must have started orbiting around my own self lately. That's really a crappy thing to realize, but it was good.

Okay, it's not all about me.

So next time I feel like things are too much for me to handle, I've just got to say, "Hey, stop worrying... this is about God here, and what he wants to do. Ask him about it. See if HE's being honoured and glorified in this, or if I'm sort of being honoured more than him here."

That's all for now.