Oh the emotions!

Today was a strange day for me...

In ballet class, we were doing some excercises going across the floor, and as usual, it was taking me a little longer to catch on. Only today, I really didn't have much energy to put into getting it right. After trying to do the routine, and giving up halfway through because I messed it up, I went back to the wall and tried to laugh it off... only the laugh turned into a sob, and the sobs wouldn't stop. At first, no one saw because everyone else was still concentrating on their turn to do the excericise, but when my friends looked at me, I was heaving full sobs and my eyes were streaming.

I just couldn't stop. I started, and I could not stop! It's like the tide opened and all the stress of this sudden new life, the challenge of trying to dance, our finances still not picking up, a really busy schedule, and all the pressure I put on myself to do well all caught up with me.

So I took a moment to go to the washroom to try and calm down. But the sobs kept on going... without me even knowing why. The rest of the class I felt like I was just barely holding the tears in. Later, I went up to the Rosen's house and was sitting at the table having some food, thinking I could calm down now... and almost every person who walked in made me cry just by looking at me sympathetically. Yes, I sat there at the table sobbing for a while. Oh... the humilitation of public crying... but it was really out of my control, and it did feel like the most real day I've had in a while.

I still don't really know why I'm so overwhelmed. Sometimes the tears just come without you calling them, and they don't stop until they're done. They're done now, by the way... and tomorrow is another day... another day of pushing on, flying straight, doing what I love to do, even if it's hard.

Here's to struggling through... and overcoming!